Doin' It...

I guess I've been waiting for that spurt of inspiration or the "right moment" to begin posting on this blog again. I fear in my absence, I may have lost some following, but if I recall my initial motive in keeping this blog was to document my creativity, which then makes this blog geared for me and my future use, having a community following like I see around the blog world was not something I expected to have. Please, don't get me wrong, I love everyone that comes by and leaves me their opinion and I certainly welcome the witnessing to my process, but honestly, I am doing this for myself.

That being said, no time like the present for an update on what's happening for me creatively.

I felt like nothing was happening, then I stood back and realized, yes, something IS happening here. Something amazing. I'm in a place where my only work options are either go into business for myself and make it work, or get a job at some BIG BOX STORE. Since I don't want to work for a pathetically low wage, I choose to work from home - again. I know what this is like, I know what resources I have available to me. So in the span of a few short weeks since arriving in Montana, I have created something out of very little, and am continuing to grow it. I have secured business council, written a business plan and a mission statement, secured an inexpensive and convenient office - with some modifications - I plan to set this business up differently this time. I want this to finally be an "adult" business, meaning that I'm not just some "schmoe" doing desktop design in his garage. Damnit, I'm better than that. I'm worth more than that and my skills mean more to me than they did before.

Here's my new mission statement:
"To become a leading-edge designer and photographer in a world-wide market with clients across the United States and Europe, having the ability to manifest work and operate in any place on the globe. To maintain a high level of design and photographic expertise, continually learning and growing in my craft, building in myself confidence in my abilities and honing my sales and self-promotional traits. Building solid client relationships backed with a commitment to excellent service. To ultimately gain recognition in my field through competitions and feature articles and to nurture and grow an elevated salary level while maintaining competitive prices."

Every time I think about the people I graduated with, hearing the success of their careers and thinking to myself that I choose to live a "lifestyle" instead of a "career", I weaken my ability to become a success in my own right. I have more self-respect for my creativity now and I'm working on my self-esteem, not personally, but in regards to my marketability. I'm working on my presentation, how I come across.

I hate tapping into ego, I've worked so hard in the past 7 years to reduce and put into submission my ego, but this is a job FOR the ego! I'm going to make a name for myself this time. I'm out for the bigger targets and want to manifest recognition for my skills on a worldwide stage. Vanity is not one of my strong suits, but this is coming from somewhere other than vanity this time. This is an honest drive to become successful, even if it means I'm only successful in my circles in Florida and create a small niche for myself here. The sky is the limit, I have the resources available to me to really do something great here.

...and I'm going to do it.